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Nov. 13th, 2005 @ 10:52 pm Melancholy Tangents
Whats goin on: melancholymelancholy
Whats Playing: Metallica - The Unforgiven
You ever get the feeling all of a sudden that everything you've believed for so long was infact vice versa? And what ever you were fighting for, you're not even sure you want/deserve/have-any-right-to anymore?

I really don't think I'm having an emo here, (even tho it IS late sunday night so some would beg to differ...) but I'm at a stalemate with the "tight-knit-group" as a whole, and have once again resolved to building walls as opposed to facing the situation... which I put down to a general distaste of all avenues held within, and can honestly say in this point in time, having weighed up pro's con's if's and's and but's, that I simply have no desire to.
That said, this is by far the most disappointing end to a venture I truly believed in to date. This one felt different.

Once again, it is time to rebuild, regroup and have another shot in this crazy old world.
I was due, it's been far too long I guess In a freaky kinda way, it's almost comforting in that I still know how my own mind works, and what defense mechanisms I can rely on.

I wish it wasn't "Mr D" that (once again) showed me the way, as it sounds worse to me than it does to you i can assure you.
But once again, the same building blocks remain... It's what I've always known... my most magnificent sin.... to also be the unfortunate demise. "Enter the chameleon."

Take Care
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Nov. 8th, 2005 @ 12:16 am Triskaidekaphobia - Fear of Friday 13th's
Whats goin on: drunkdrunk, but not so much anymore
Whats Playing: Grinspoon - Black Friday
The cure for Mondayitis? Annebreiated semi randoms at ur house force feeding you liquor when it just so happens your boss isn't there tomorrow... i'm only human afterall.
(note to self, when ur alcoholic concoction turns a purpley brown, ur in a world of pain. (pics came out great brad ;))

In other news, semi-drunk d&m's can be unexpectedly good, i've lived with my housemate for 9 months, known him for years, but never got drunk with him, damndest thing. Alcohol on a whole tho, generally over-rated.

Revelation... talking about this January being my black friday birthday, and a big one at that, it turns out my housemate (also born on a black friday) will be celebrating his next black one, on his 31st. (a backwards 13).

Impressive, I had my 13th on a blacky, with a side of 6 for good measure, and evidently, it's the Satanic New Year as it's the 13th day of the year...and... and...

I think the fuckers got me :/

"If u play Tin Lids - Everybody Walk The Dinosaur backwards, it says something about the chosen one killing bishops"
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Nov. 6th, 2005 @ 09:53 am ...
Whats goin on: chipperchipper
Whats Playing: Smashing Pumpkins - Landslide
Enter the new genre of my lj updating... out with the emo whiney ass bullshit (for now i spose) and in with the "coming down, no1 to dribble shit with, gonna ramble here for a bit ey" genre. :)

What a funny old night ey,
Familiar situations, semi-different faces... caught up with Binx, Mel, Shane & co for a little waltz down memory lane(sleep when ur dead isit? ;])

Overall a good night, saw sides of a few ppl i hadn't been privvy to before, and was quite impressed by how ppl can surprise ya.

Revelations were had by many, followed by a brisk morning walk thru nollamara (safer than it sounded)

It's been a while between shards, far too long really.

Ok, well that's fuckin it. Nothing, something... to me it's now past tense

"I don't even know you anymore" lolz :D
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