urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lowkey666 "Wallowing in crapulance..." lowkey666 2005-11-13T15:13:30Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lowkey666:6732 2005-11-13T15:13:30Z 2005-11-13T15:13:30Z Metallica - The Unforgiven You ever get the feeling all of a sudden that everything you've believed for so long was infact vice versa? And what ever you were fighting for, you're not even sure you want/deserve/have-any-right-to anymore?<br /><br />I really don't think I'm having an emo here, (even tho it IS late sunday night so some would beg to differ...) but I'm at a stalemate with the "tight-knit-group" as a whole, and have once again resolved to building walls as opposed to facing the situation... which I put down to a general distaste of all avenues held within, and can honestly say in this point in time, having weighed up pro's con's if's and's and but's, that I simply have no desire to.<br />That said, this is by far the most disappointing end to a venture I truly believed in to date. This one felt different.<br /><br />Once again, it is time to rebuild, regroup and have another shot in this crazy old world.<br />I was due, it's been far too long I guess In a freaky kinda way, it's almost comforting in that I still know how my own mind works, and what defense mechanisms I can rely on.<br /><br />I wish it wasn't "Mr D" that (once again) showed me the way, as it sounds worse to me than it does to you i can assure you.<br />But once again, the same building blocks remain... It's what I've always known... my most magnificent sin.... to also be the unfortunate demise. "Enter the chameleon."<br /><br />Take Care urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lowkey666:5918 2005-11-07T16:39:07Z 2005-11-07T16:54:12Z Grinspoon - Black Friday The cure for Mondayitis? Annebreiated semi randoms at ur house force feeding you liquor when it just so happens your boss isn't there tomorrow... i'm only human afterall.<br />(note to self, when ur alcoholic concoction turns a purpley brown, ur in a world of pain. (pics came out great brad ;))<br /><br />In other news, semi-drunk d&m's can be unexpectedly good, i've lived with my housemate for 9 months, known him for years, but never got drunk with him, damndest thing. Alcohol on a whole tho, generally over-rated.<br /><br />Revelation... talking about this January being my black friday birthday, and a big one at that, it turns out my housemate (also born on a black friday) will be celebrating his next black one, on his 31st. (a backwards 13).<br /><br />Impressive, I had my 13th on a blacky, with a side of 6 for good measure, and evidently, it's the Satanic New Year as it's the 13th day of the year...and... and...<br /><br />I think the fuckers got me :/<br /><br />"If u play Tin Lids - Everybody Walk The Dinosaur backwards, it says something about the chosen one killing bishops" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lowkey666:5651 2005-11-06T02:30:51Z 2005-11-06T02:30:51Z Smashing Pumpkins - Landslide Enter the new genre of my lj updating... out with the emo whiney ass bullshit (for now i spose) and in with the "coming down, no1 to dribble shit with, gonna ramble here for a bit ey" genre. :)<br /><br />What a funny old night ey,<br />Familiar situations, semi-different faces... caught up with Binx, Mel, Shane & co for a little waltz down memory lane(sleep when ur dead isit? ;]) <br /><br />Overall a good night, saw sides of a few ppl i hadn't been privvy to before, and was quite impressed by how ppl can surprise ya.<br /><br />Revelations were had by many, followed by a brisk morning walk thru nollamara (safer than it sounded)<br /><br />It's been a while between shards, far too long really.<br /><br />Ok, well that's fuckin it. Nothing, something... to me it's now past tense<br /><br />"I don't even know you anymore" lolz :D